FINISHED!

LOL, finally am back to my blog.
I guess its been almost half years i was away, but its okay. I CAME BACK.
Well, firstly gotta tell everyone STPM ENDED just few hours ago.
It is really a big relief for sixth former.
And yes the problem now is WHAT TO DO after exam?
Part time job, Full time job or travel to places?
I dont really have any planning yet. dilemma.

Last but not least.
HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE! <3

Coming home

As the title said, am coming back to here, once again.
Well, 1 more day to go. The STPM is finishing. Lol
Later guys, xoxo.




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LOVELY ADVICE

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.                                                                           
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2010.
7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
8. Sleep for 7 hours.
9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

1. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
6. Dream more while you are awake.
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more.
14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

1. Call your family often.
2. Each day give something good to others.
3. Forgive everyone for everything.
4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
6. What other people think of you is none of your business.
7. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1. Do the right thing!
2. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
4. The best is yet to come.
5. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy. 

Taken from tumblr. =)

I’ve always known who I am. I might not work perfectly, or be like them, but that’s okay. I know I work in my own way..

yes, i certainly know who i am, what is my personalities, it is what i choose to be. 

Sometimes, when i am lost, i hope friends can find me back and put me back on the right track. 

When you’re different…when you’re special…sometimes you have to get used to being alone.

but i always believe, there are still some, staying side by side and i wont feel that lonely. 

Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway..

This is so true. =0


i never know i wrote this and this actually saved as draft. LOL.
anyway, i will post it just to share with everyone. 

i always have quotes about motivation or inspiration.

sometimes, i just need them to push me, further to my dream. =)

Uh, just to avoid ourselves from thinking too much. :)
Just to make our mind peace.


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REANDOM!

yes! everything is coming to the end. 

Sorry for those who just started the exam. Goodluck and we will be enjoying our holiday soon. =)

this holiday, got lots of places to go, lots of things to do.

yes, seem like it will be a busy holiday. xD

kinda relax now, reading yanzi's weibo, Xiao S's as well.

Mc flurry, really old time fave. 

thought of many things recently, leaving coming going.. hmm..

(taken from Tumblr)

life's going on, we dont know what happen next.

we got to be independent, only you will be able to face the world alone.

Lol

Lolol. This is indeed a very true statement. But, when comes to strangers, ppl said I acted like so egoism. The truth is, this is just so non real.
Guess, today I will be talking about anything that pop up randomly.
Few days ago, I was not really in a good mood, and of cause I just keep it to myself. I have lots of great friend around me.
Feel like mixing quite well in my class. I will learn to care more about my classmate, as they are also important to me.
Sometimes, it will be very tiring socializing with people, but in every person you can see the ways to social with diff types of people.
They can help to train our communicating skills that we will be going to use it very often in the future community.
It takes courage to make new friends, more courage to keep your friends. Some said, you don't need to care much, true friends stay while others will just leave you afterall.
I appreciate every single friend that came into my life, no matter now you walk out or still staying or just came in. You are always my friends.
Thank you, my friends.


Instead of 4 years, I have almost 7 years of it. Without that, I might be so empty.
Hearts. Xoxo

With love,
Dean, ODJ, Odelia, Dean Jiun, DJ.
Without all of you, I will be ad ordinary as a man walking on the street.

Later guys.

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I wish, there is no me.



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Sleepless night. Thoughts cane across.
Thinking so much about the failure I've encountered.
I did many mistakes I guess.
Finally i've been through failure.
I fell so hard, I can't take somehow.
Confidence dropped to a minimum level.
Face the reality, I am not strong enough. Express my feeling, I am not good enough.
Just simply words from all
Of you make me feel better.

Later guys. Off to bed.


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...

I need time to recover from the pain.


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Expectation & disappointment

Got this randomly from tumblr.
I truly believe in this.
That is what we should practice in order to get rid of disappointment.
Sometimes, the more you expect from someone, you eventually feel so disappointed if they didn't do what you expected from them.
But in the same way, you will expect from them, just because you care about them.
For example, we don't expect anything from strangers but only from your FnF.
I've been through this, few times but this is not feeling nice.
We expect nothing and learn to give.
We'll live a peaceful life. :D
Well said. Believe in this, we are half successful. :)


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T.T

i am here once again.
feel like writing so much. diff things, diff ppl encountered.
yes, i had just taken my MUET exam today.
i guess, retake is a must for me. xD
just read an article in facebook.
kinda sad after reading that article, tears rolling down.
and yes, new people we've met, everyone walking on their own pathway.
we no longer share our happiness and sadness like how we did last time.
and everyone actually miss those old days, it is kinda impossible to find the feeling back.
its true, no more facing exam together.
its true, we have not much time being together talking all around like nobody's bussiness.
after reading, i cried. everything is so true.
i am really glad that we had memories together.
T.T

我们不能时时在身边

好像电话短信也没有了

我们不能第一时间

分享彼此的快乐与不快乐

好像变的冷漠沉默了

我们不能再一起去吃饭

一起说说笑笑

好像走出彼此的世界了

我们不能一起考试

一起努力

一起奋斗

好像现在已经完全脱离过去了

我们不再有小矛盾

也不再笑的那么肆无忌惮

好像身边少了一些什么

但也不那么重要了

我们不能一起犯错一起哭

好像那只属于过去的不成熟

我们不能讨论谁今天好帅，

制造那故意的偶遇了

好像青葱岁月只留下斑驳的记忆

我们都有了新的生活新的环境

新的朋友我们都在面对新的事

新的人陪在我们身边

分享着我们的喜怒哀乐

有时候也会想起想起曾经的我们

有时候一个小物品

就会勾起一大串一大串的回忆

关于你 关于我们

甚至连那一句话都记得清楚

当时的笑当时的闹时间改变了什么

其实什么都没有

时间让我们从过去到现在冲淡的是回忆

带不走的也是回忆

亲爱的你们

感激遇到你

陪我走过那一段长长的路那时的我

幼稚不成熟

那时的我

遇到一个又一个坎

是你们陪我成长

没有丢下我

如今大家都在不同的地方

不同的环境

渐渐地渐渐地

不再联系

但状态的每一次更新，

相册的每一次更改

都牵动着彼此的心

因为这样，

我就知道远方的你们

好或不好

快乐或不快乐

原谅不能时刻陪伴

原谅那份感情不再浓烈

原谅或许偶尔想起会感觉孤单

如果有一天我们再遇见

朋友们

好哥们

好姐们

同桌的你

那当初的一切不会变

那当初陪我牵手走过的路不会忘记！

那种感情，不再浓烈，却一直存在的

anyone knows this feeling more than i do?

there is slowly a gap between us, what can i do to make this gap disappear?

memories remain, time flies, friendship never ends.

Both

Today. Doesn't rain. But it feels like raining.
Do you know, that is so speechless you met the wrong people in your life.
They are actually very close to you, but they don't seem to understand you.
Men are all one kind. My man made me suffer from time to time.
He doesn't know what usually a girl thinks.
Making empty promise is his daily routine.
Complaining about my requirement is his best past time.
And So dislike you will be one of my fave too.
I know both of you didnt play your role as what you should do.
Instead of take care of me, educate me, you leave me alone and being irresponsible in this situation.




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..

I feel like running away.



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Betterment.

This was how I felt yesterday.
I myself feel that still not good enough.
I am not sad because of losing the competition, but the commitment that I can't achieve.
It is no big deal actually.
I knew that so well, just thoughts went uncontrollably in my mind.
Win or lose doesn't matter, i've actually been through all these.
I know what went wrong, I will learn from my mistakes.
I can't be that fragile anymore.
I just can't be too sensitive in everything.
There's still a long long way to go.
It is all about self confidence.
If you think you can, you can.
Yes, I can! :) cheers

Later guys.

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Question?

Sometimes I wonder.
Who am I to others?



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0.0

feelings beyond words.

i actually wondering how much more i can bear my sadness all by myself.

sometimes, it is true. when you need someone by yourside, you just can find nobody.

kind of pathetic. =l 

can someone actually see through my smile, and can actually tell me i am not happy?

can i be a lil bit tougher than who i am actually?

i cant speak, but tears rolling down from my cutie red cheeks.

they are kinda stubborn when i forced them not to roll now.

i regretted so many things. or maybe i am just testing how worse i can be?

sometimes, there are always something behind.

sometimes, nobody can tells.

sometimes, you just need to figure it out by yourself.

sometimes, it is kinda tiring guessing around.

with this i learnt a lesson, you might fall once you did something wrong.

this is your own bussiness whether you fail it or succeed in your life.

no one's gonna take responsiblity toward your future.

you gotta work really hard to achieve what you've targetted.

not only dare to dream, not only saying, plan and make it works.

Angel said to DJ,

how much time you had wasted in your past?

how deep you had fell?

how many mistakes you had done?

where is your passion towards your study?

where is your motivation? 

while Demon said to DJ,

Still got next exam what, do it better next time.

just a lil test, why so worry about it?

still got time to study, no need to worry.

watch tv or online first, study later.

to prove my determination, if i cant get good result next time. 

i will laugh at myself, and punish myself, no good food to eat.

i am growing, time to time.

somehow, i feel so helpless in this pathway.

i know at times i need to do decision, at times, i need to hold on to my own principle.

growing up isn't as fun as i thought.

i am making life easier, happier, carefree-er.

to maths to everything. 

i am just lack of determination, patience.

here to say, maths i can own you one day. WATCH OUT.

YEAH

wide smile. and yes!
exam over, and guess so. imaginary friend keeps telling me what i need to do.
but the real exam, the final exam, the toughest exam is waiting for me.
everyone started to be very very hardworking excluded me?
what am i actually procrastinating? ><
lets see this exam what kind of result i will get. =O
i know what's wrong with me, i know what i should do.
just just i am lack of something. MOTIVATION and also INSPIRATION.
i gotta stick lots of motivating quotes all around my bedroom.
and start finding people who can actually inspire me.. =)
i know i know, it is time to wake up dear angel. lol

：)

有人曾告诉我，对他而言彩虹是幸福。
我给得了幸福吗？
很多时候，以为放下了，
但是只是没提起，不等于放下。
一直以来，我都不懂。
但现在好象懂了些些。
彩虹，它会是幸福的代表。
快乐，就由阳光来取代吧。


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DEANAD

sharing some happy moments with all of you.
for your information. i met up with my best ever malay friend.
long long story between us.
very very very nice to meet a friend after one year later.
whoa, that feeling was like so so so indescribable.
met her sis, sister fatin. XD she is kinda friendly.
besides that, finally me and my dad has a happy ending. =)
no more running away from him.
thoughts came across but i used to forget after sometimes.
and so thats the reason why blog is so dead. XD

<3

sometimes, you tend to forget people around you.

but i believe somehow, they are always there for us.

i am still putting efforts in this realistic world.

i can find an equilibrium level someday.

At times, I am acting immaturely.
I don't really hold back my feeling.
I have you to teach me think differently.
I have you who always cheer me up.
I have you to share my sadness and happiness.
I have you to nag on me.
I have you who makes me feel so warm.
I have you to get rid of my bad habits.
I have you to share gossips with.
I have you to strengthen bonds between us.
I have you discuss about fashion and skincare.
I have you who comforts me when I am down.
I have you to share my tears with.
I have you to be my supporter.
I have too much you in my heart.
Thank you. All the you in my heart, I love you eternally.




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2010 summary

no doubt. time flies like nobody's bussiness.

as you know, now we are in 2011 for about 1 month already.

looking back, it is time to look back to year 2010.

i guess, that was really a memorable yet challenging year for me.

i struggled through so many things such as refuse to go to national service.

this was the first thing made me cried for so long.. XD

my company, Charlie.

Bestie in Kem Tasoh.

and i met her, best upon best. =)

and afterthat i came back from the camp, learnt so much. 

physically and mentally trained, social communicating skills improved, add on with leadership.

and this actually helps me in my form 6 life, and also knowledge of Kenegaraan helps in PA.

so u can see, how benificial is the program of national service.

the SATU MALAYSIA concept, great! =)

next, will be our friend trip to Singapore.

nothing much to describe, but BEST!

sleep together, having pillow talks, bought stuff together, chased after topshop's models.

everyday supper until so full. every night cheesecake, 6-star hotel accomodation. 

 Penang Airport. 

 Singapore Changi Airport.

 Leaving SG, waiting for the Flight.

 The Six's passport. 

 Sentosa Silosso Beach, on the Tram. 

 One of the model.

 Leaving Eunos, Cried and thanks to Aunty Mon.

Part time 'Beggar' LOL

 Another Group pic.

Things bought in SG.

next on, orientation week of form 6. 

informations about form 6, streams need to be chosen, sending off JPN letters.

and got into science stream for the first 2 weeks.

afterthat transferred to arts later on, lots of activities coming up after that.

been so busy and i actually lose weight. XD

Cross country, training camp, service day, campfire. etc. 

 Class party at L6SN1.

 with the pasta-maker. XD

 merentas desa at Youth Park.

 skills teaching before training camp.

 Advisor and also PL

 Logos.

 Temporary's house. XD

 Tough die. 

 Campfire burning. 

 Service day

 Was preparing.

 Goods sent to Old Folks Home.

 My classmates. 

and so, we had 2 tests during our lower 6. 

and many outings together, and maybe obstacles faced and solved.

handled clubs and sports. very nice studying form 6. XD

end of 2010, i went to Taiwan and also Hong Kong with family.

had great time with family, knew lots of things. hahahaha

=)

to be continue. 

later guys. 

Silently kills the past.

I am sad for nothing but something in my heart.
I get frustrated for something, but I can't say anything.
I keep everything back just to make peace.
Why and why? Once, and twice?
I had too much expectations, and now I am having too much disappointment.
I learned a lesson.
Deep in my heart. I know the value of friendship.
Sometimes it hurts so much.
Sometimes it brings joy so much.
My fault to be too emotionally mad about it.
My fault to see this so importantly.
My fault to grow up as time goes by.
My fault to see things changed but I can't help to make things better.
I am a fool, in this. I shouldnt care too much.
I am tired, speechless, will everything still be the same?
Will we stay together like how we used to be?


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无法改变的事实，我无能为力。
只盼，未来能让我忘掉一切。
我原本可以很幸福，但我敌不过残酷的现实。
没了你们，我还是长大了。
谢谢你们在我生命里，消失了大半日子。
我依旧在婆婆的温暖细心照顾下，19岁了。
谢谢你们，让我一个人面对那么多事情。



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JANE LEE!

Have a blessed birthday.
To you, :)






友谊万岁！

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我又深深的体会了人生。
是那么的无常，深不可测。
人的相处之道，我又学会了吗？
不要顾虑那么多，该来的总得来。
面对着种种即将来临的考验，
是该定下心，勇敢的承担。
我说到，又做到了吗？



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去年，现在

突然想起了去年的现在，真的好像错过了现在的很多很多。

去年的现在，我自个儿在当兵。

真的，想去现在做的事，往往会回想起为什么去年的我没有做。

当兵，真是一件还蛮有趣的事。

当中，真的学到了很多东西，多多少少也是塑造了现在的我。

三个月里，认识了不同州的朋友们。

当然认识了花生，最好的马来朋友。

学习自律，自立，独立还有适应环境的能力。

无可否认，的确我哭了第一个星期。

觉得真的很难过，每晚偷偷哭泣。

但是，当认识了朋友生活就不一样了。

常常混在一起，吃饭，冲凉，洗衣，还有几乎每个月都有家长日吧。

大家都会分享家人们带来的食物。

真的真的生活在那里，时间是走得很快。

几乎每一天，我们都需要上课，上的都关于团结，提升自己之类的课。

在那里，我学会了沟通，生活点滴，洗衣的技巧，礼让的精神。

还有还有，体验了前所未有的经验。

我们大伙儿走进了湖里围圆圈放松自己。

划了独舟，还有一队人划了轮胎船，还有玩户外的障碍游戏。

回到现在的我，面对学业，课外活动。

试着面对一切。

真的，太快了。我又长大了一岁。

来冲冲，去冲冲。

到底得到的又是些什么?

人生不留白，我想把我的生活彩上很多的颜色，去体验更多的新鲜趣事。

我应该知道我是喜欢些什么的。

第一天，是时候梦醒了。
告别了，以往的生活方式。
早点睡吧，现实的世界。
让那梦幻仙境出现，安抚那庸庸碌碌的人类。
睡是一种自我逃避的方式，怪不得我的爱好是睡觉。xD



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