Love?

 Reading familiar blog of my friends and many had got into a relationship. As a friend of them, of course I feel so happy seeing them having a very sweet and lovely relationship, and also some solved their problems and being so sweet now. Felt so nice seeing lovely couples around me. And this is the time I started to doubt on myself, when will I have a relationship, just left this unknown because I guess I haven’t ready for it.

But who knows my Mr. Right is just right beside me? I do prefer to be single all the time and I don’t see myself as one of the people who wanted a relationship so badly but just follow the flow. I don’t really know what kind of boyfriend am looking for, I hope he knows how to play guitar or other instruments which he can compose a song and sing to me or maybe we can make a perfect duet, a Caucasian boyfriend with blue or green eyes, blonde hair with tanned skin.. Etc. These are all sort of dream or ideal one I wished to have, but I know whenever I have feeling toward somebody and all these don’t matter any more  I know I am not too young to talk about being involved in a relationship, I should start seeing someone or just date people that I like just like how they did in movies, but I just haven’t ready.

I just don’t like to commit myself to something and be responsible for something or someone, I know part of growing up is to learn how to give commitments or take responsibilities; it takes so much courage for me to get committed to stuff. Simply being single and carefree makes my life simpler and more relax. Some experiences did give me some negative impacts which probably changed my life now. Paranoid isn't a good thing though, it’s kind of hard to get over. There were hard times I need to face with tears and fear, but am doing well now. Relationship is just not my thing, for now I supposed but I feel happy for people around me who enjoy their sweet lil moment with their couples. By looking at them, I simply feel so warm there are loves in the air.

Single doesn't mean you are not in love;

It’s simply because you are waiting for the right one to come into your life,

To fill your emptiness with his/her love and live happily ever after.

Just as simple as that.

And now,