Reading familiar blog of my friends and many had got into a
relationship. As a friend of them, of course I feel so happy seeing them having
a very sweet and lovely relationship, and also some solved their problems and
being so sweet now. Felt so nice seeing lovely couples around me. And this is
the time I started to doubt on myself, when will I have a relationship, just left
this unknown because I guess I haven’t ready for it.
But who knows my Mr. Right is just
right beside me? I do prefer to be single all the time and I don’t see myself
as one of the people who wanted a relationship so badly but just follow the
flow. I don’t really know what kind of boyfriend am looking for, I hope he
knows how to play guitar or other instruments which he can compose a song and
sing to me or maybe we can make a perfect duet, a Caucasian boyfriend with blue
or green eyes, blonde hair with tanned skin.. Etc. These are all sort of dream
or ideal one I wished to have, but I know whenever I have feeling toward
somebody and all these don’t matter any more I know I am not too young to talk
about being involved in a relationship, I should start seeing someone or just
date people that I like just like how they did in movies, but I just haven’t ready.
I just don’t like to commit myself
to something and be responsible for something or someone, I know part of growing
up is to learn how to give commitments or take responsibilities; it takes so
much courage for me to get committed to stuff. Simply being single and carefree
makes my life simpler and more relax. Some experiences did give me some negative
impacts which probably changed my life now. Paranoid isn't a good thing though,
it’s kind of hard to get over. There were hard times I need to face with tears
and fear, but am doing well now. Relationship is just not my thing, for now I supposed
but I feel happy for people around me who enjoy their sweet lil moment with
their couples. By looking at them, I simply feel so warm there are loves in the
air.
Single doesn't mean you are not in love;
It’s simply because you are waiting for the right
one to come into your life,
To fill your emptiness with his/her love and
live happily ever after.
Just as simple as that.
And now,
