feelings beyond words.
i actually wondering how much more i can bear my sadness all by myself.
sometimes, it is true. when you need someone by yourside, you just can find nobody.
kind of pathetic. =l
can someone actually see through my smile, and can actually tell me i am not happy?
can i be a lil bit tougher than who i am actually?
i cant speak, but tears rolling down from my cutie red cheeks.
they are kinda stubborn when i forced them not to roll now.
i regretted so many things. or maybe i am just testing how worse i can be?
sometimes, there are always something behind.
sometimes, nobody can tells.
sometimes, you just need to figure it out by yourself.
sometimes, it is kinda tiring guessing around.
with this i learnt a lesson, you might fall once you did something wrong.
this is your own bussiness whether you fail it or succeed in your life.
no one's gonna take responsiblity toward your future.
you gotta work really hard to achieve what you've targetted.
not only dare to dream, not only saying, plan and make it works.
Angel said to DJ,
how much time you had wasted in your past?
how deep you had fell?
how many mistakes you had done?
where is your passion towards your study?
where is your motivation?
while Demon said to DJ,
Still got next exam what, do it better next time.
just a lil test, why so worry about it?
still got time to study, no need to worry.
watch tv or online first, study later.
to prove my determination, if i cant get good result next time.
i will laugh at myself, and punish myself, no good food to eat.
i am growing, time to time.
somehow, i feel so helpless in this pathway.
i know at times i need to do decision, at times, i need to hold on to my own principle.
growing up isn't as fun as i thought.
i am making life easier, happier, carefree-er.
to maths to everything.
i am just lack of determination, patience.
here to say, maths i can own you one day. WATCH OUT.
